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If This Were My Body

by Adrian Copeland

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Adrian Copeland's 'If This Were My Body' is the eighth and final release in the Lost Tribe Sound album series, Salt and Gravity. The series includes albums from Arrowounds, ’t Geruis, mastroKristo, Adrian Copeland (aka Alder & Ash), Tony Dupé (aka Saddleback), Federico Mosconi, sanr, and Alapastel. To receive 'If This Were My Body' on CD or Digital at a discount, subscribe to the series here:


‘If This Were My Body’ (releasing on Lost Tribe Sound) is the first album from Canadian experimental cellist and composer Adrian Copeland under his given name. Some may be familiar with Copeland’s body of work as Alder & Ash. While the project has garnered attention from a wide range of musical communities ranging from metal to classical, the decision to release the new record apart from the works of his alias make sense. Though Copeland remains committed to the cello as the primary and only sound source, its an internal shift that has played the biggest part in shaping this album.

"If the music I wrote was my body, how would I use it to tell stories? Would I fight with others, would I hurt myself, would I yell or would I cry? On this album, I wanted to reclaim my body as an instrument of gentleness and love. Too often, the male body is objectified as a tool of violence and hate, and we don't often have the chance to learn what it means to love as men. My own relationship with my body is marked with bitterness, self hatred, and shame. This album "If This Were My Body" is an unlearning of all the violence I've inflicted and all the violence that's been inflicted on me. It's a celebration of another way of being, one of vulnerability and tenderness.

There is a triumph here that doesn't exist on my previous albums. There are moments of sadness and intensity, but it's overwhelmingly an album about love, specifically self love. During this period I was undergoing a period of transformation and relearning my relationship to myself, my work, and most importantly, my body. I wanted to release this album under my own name, as it felt more vulnerable to do so. There is no artifice to hide my emotions”

- Words of Adrian Copeland


released May 6, 2022

Originally released on Lost Tribe Sound. See Catalog:

TOP ALBUMS OF 2022 - "an album of naked emotions that loses in menacing contrasts what it gains in heady lyricism, without giving up the palpable tension of its strummed strings" - (Rabbit) INDIE ROCK MAG




"One can sense Copeland’s internal struggle as he builds to a tentative resolution, first apparent in the crescendo of “Rites of Sorrow” and solidified in the peaceful closer." - (Richard Allen) A CLOSER LISTEN

"If you enjoy modern classical music, especially by composers like Gorecki, Ligeti or Penderecki, Canadian composer Adrian Copeland has something here which will appeal to you, with long, mournful drones, sparse instrumentation, and a rough, melancholic feel" - (Rudy Carrera) MUSIC YOU NEED TO HEAR

"Solitary and at times alienating, the album reveals a lively and unusual harmonic dimension, which derives austere gentleness from a vibrant restlessness." - (translated from Italian) MUSIC WON'T SAVE YOU / ROCKERILLA

"The distortion pedals are dropped in favour of beautifully-recorded acoustic cello, plucked, bowed, tapped and knocked. While there's a lot of turmoil and sadness here, there are also surprisingly positive and peaceful tracks. A very satisfying, very successful album." - (Peter Hollo) UTILITY FOG

"A palpable, compelling and often completely overwhelming album, which is an embodiment of sincere and intense emotions." - (Jan Willem Broek) DE SUBJECTIVISTEN


Total run time: 40 minutes

Music, recording and mixing by Adrian Copeland
Mastered by Ian Hawgood
Artwork, layout and design by R. Keane
© Adrian Copeland / Lost Tribe Sound LLC
℗ Settled Scores LLC (ASCAP)


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Alder & Ash Montreal, Québec

Alder & Ash is a counterpoint of two extremes. The music lies in stillness, introversion, and penitence. It lies in violence, cacophony, and angst. Alder & Ash plays cello with loop pedal to create improvised minimal classical music, with influence of doom metal, ambient, post-rock and noise. ... more

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